Stillborn
TW: stillbirth as a metaphor, death, zombies, gore, graphic details of death. Stillbirth: When a baby dies after a certain point of pregnancy, but before or during birth.
I'm starting to think my parents were dead when I was conceived.
It's possible that my mother was dead when she gave birth to me.
I think I could've been dead when I was born. I was stillborn.
I'm talking about how people like us don't usually get to build our own identities and personalities, but that we are a group of created, dead people. Frankensteins.
If I wasn't dead when my eyes opened, I certainly was gone before my 2nd birthday.
My first memories started at age 4, and it's amazing to know I was probably a zombie.
One of my very first memories is of coming out of the bathroom in pre-K. That's when I "snapped in" to the consciousness I can remember now.
My identity and personality had already been chipped off of me with a chisel. Crudely too, sometimes I would get nicked or bled from the chipping.
But honestly, for me, I was
but europeans have no idea about magic. at least not the generative, regenerative kind.
they don't know about rebirth.
Their "renaissance" was literally just them deciding to be more focused on "human-ness" (although they still never made it to "humanity"). If you ask me, it was just them further cutting themselves off from the natural world, refusing to see themselves as animals like any other creature. A marker of disconnection from seeing the value of anything outside of the european.